Sometimes I ask myself, “Why did I survive? Why did the powers that be spare my life?” For long stretches I believed the world would be better off without me. Or maybe I thought I would be better off without the world. I’ve been clinically dead and should have died many times over. At one time I even prayed for death to come and take me. Thankfully, fate ignored my request, and my angels made sure I survived all the close encounters. Either way I’m here to stay and a better man for it. The greatest news I’ve heard yet has been thrust upon me. My oldest son and my beautiful daughter-in-law are having a baby! I’m going to be a grandpa! Haven’t stopped crying tears of joy all day. This moment, here and now, is why I’m still alive. Thank you God! I went into recovery March 13th, 2009. There have been several stumbles along the way but I’m clean and loving life as we speak. I’ve been tapering off the smokes and I just threw my pack out. This is my last chemical hurdle. Never quit fighting, never give up hope, and keep moving forward!
Update; I haven’t had a cigarette in a week!!!!
I’ll be adding more to this post in the days to come. I had lost my desire to write but it’s back in full throttle! Believe in peace, love, and understanding.
DANIEL THOMAS, JR 